WEEK 6 - UNDESERVED SUCCESS!
Week 6 – birthday week! That pretty much sums up my week lol. After the catastrophe of last week, I agreed to give myself the week to not stress or pay too much attention to my diet. I was going to eat and drink what I like and then draw a line under it and get back on it.
I still didn't change any of the habits I'd formed though, the daily lemon water, less snacking, less fizzy drinks and generally being more aware of the decisions I'm making and how those decisions form habits.
I also invested in some Jillian Michael workouts from Google play so that when I'm back on it, I hit it hard. But aside from those things, there has been zero effort made. We all have those times when we fall off the wagon, but the important thing is that we get back on a new wagon asap, that we don't let one failure, one bad decision suffocate our motivation, desire and ambition to achieve. You will only fail if you admit defeat. You will only admit defeat if the goal isn't a true desire. Bad days aren't bad weeks or months, they're bad moments, insignificant in the grand scheme of things. You will only ever fail by giving up and letting go of your dreams. And I'm not a quitter or a failure and neither is anyone reading this!
Slowly, I'm seeing changes. Changes in my thoughts, choices, consciousness and actions. Every time I go towards something that I know I don't need and shouldn't have, I find myself questioning how much I want it. Do I want KFC more than I want to be healthier, more than I want to be fitter, more than I want to succeed, be proud of myself and my body? No! Of course I don't and then I find myself moving away from temptation with a smug little ‘cat that got the cream' smile. Puffing out my chest like a peacock out to impress.
And the more that I lose the prouder and more self- believing I become to the point that sometimes, I'm overwhelmed by a sense of confidence and capability and I can see the results of my efforts and the end goal doesn't seem so impossible anymore.
I'm also starting to become more aware of the psychology behind eating habits. My mom always used to joke that I was on a ‘see-food’ diet, I see food and eat it. I also realise that food has always been used as a problem solver in my life. You're celebrating - let's eat out. You're sad - let's get take- away. You're angry – have chocolate. You're hormonal – here, Ben and Jerrys! And I'm starting to see that my whole life has habitually built up norms that associate emotions and occasions with unhealthy eating and also the fact that nobody ever tried to change this or discourage it. In fact, it was made into a joke and it's taken me over 30 years to realise that this isn't the way it should be.
So having eaten not a single healthy meal, and a lot of take- always and celebratory meals out, I'd anticipated a good few pounds gained this week and I was mentally prepared for what that means because I had already planned ahead until after the disastrous week up to the start of my resuming focus and how to handle it.
So imagine my surprise when I saw the 4lb loss! 😮 shocked is an understatement, I got on and off those scales so many times, I may as well have done a step aerobic workout! I'm still reeling my jaw in from the floor even now and even though I'm ecstatic about the loss, I know I need to really wind myself in next week in order to not experience too much of a bounce back from my totally undeserved success this week. But for now I'm grasping my loss with both hands, a smile on my face, and a grateful heart. 21lbs so far in 6 weeks, here's to the next 21 and the many more to follow!
Thanks everyone for your constant support and encouragement, your kindness, advice and motivation and most of all, thank you for making me feel like we're making this journey together and I'm not alone.
Choose to focus your time, energy and conversation around people who inspire you, support you and help you to grow you into your happiest, strongest, wisest self. - Karen Salmansohn
I still didn't change any of the habits I'd formed though, the daily lemon water, less snacking, less fizzy drinks and generally being more aware of the decisions I'm making and how those decisions form habits.
I also invested in some Jillian Michael workouts from Google play so that when I'm back on it, I hit it hard. But aside from those things, there has been zero effort made. We all have those times when we fall off the wagon, but the important thing is that we get back on a new wagon asap, that we don't let one failure, one bad decision suffocate our motivation, desire and ambition to achieve. You will only fail if you admit defeat. You will only admit defeat if the goal isn't a true desire. Bad days aren't bad weeks or months, they're bad moments, insignificant in the grand scheme of things. You will only ever fail by giving up and letting go of your dreams. And I'm not a quitter or a failure and neither is anyone reading this!
Slowly, I'm seeing changes. Changes in my thoughts, choices, consciousness and actions. Every time I go towards something that I know I don't need and shouldn't have, I find myself questioning how much I want it. Do I want KFC more than I want to be healthier, more than I want to be fitter, more than I want to succeed, be proud of myself and my body? No! Of course I don't and then I find myself moving away from temptation with a smug little ‘cat that got the cream' smile. Puffing out my chest like a peacock out to impress.
And the more that I lose the prouder and more self- believing I become to the point that sometimes, I'm overwhelmed by a sense of confidence and capability and I can see the results of my efforts and the end goal doesn't seem so impossible anymore.
I'm also starting to become more aware of the psychology behind eating habits. My mom always used to joke that I was on a ‘see-food’ diet, I see food and eat it. I also realise that food has always been used as a problem solver in my life. You're celebrating - let's eat out. You're sad - let's get take- away. You're angry – have chocolate. You're hormonal – here, Ben and Jerrys! And I'm starting to see that my whole life has habitually built up norms that associate emotions and occasions with unhealthy eating and also the fact that nobody ever tried to change this or discourage it. In fact, it was made into a joke and it's taken me over 30 years to realise that this isn't the way it should be.
So having eaten not a single healthy meal, and a lot of take- always and celebratory meals out, I'd anticipated a good few pounds gained this week and I was mentally prepared for what that means because I had already planned ahead until after the disastrous week up to the start of my resuming focus and how to handle it.
So imagine my surprise when I saw the 4lb loss! 😮 shocked is an understatement, I got on and off those scales so many times, I may as well have done a step aerobic workout! I'm still reeling my jaw in from the floor even now and even though I'm ecstatic about the loss, I know I need to really wind myself in next week in order to not experience too much of a bounce back from my totally undeserved success this week. But for now I'm grasping my loss with both hands, a smile on my face, and a grateful heart. 21lbs so far in 6 weeks, here's to the next 21 and the many more to follow!
Thanks everyone for your constant support and encouragement, your kindness, advice and motivation and most of all, thank you for making me feel like we're making this journey together and I'm not alone.
Choose to focus your time, energy and conversation around people who inspire you, support you and help you to grow you into your happiest, strongest, wisest self. - Karen Salmansohn
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